This week has been about acceptance. I think that John and I have come to accept the fact that we have become the parents of a special needs child. I highly doubt it is ever easy to learn that your child has special needs. But I also wonder if a layer of difficulty has been added because for 3.75 years we assumed we were parenting a typical child. The level of difficulty we face is neither here nor there, it is just a fact. But I believe it is good that we are coming to acceptance rather than trying to change this fact.
What we are having a very difficult time doing is parenting A with grace. In the few minutes that things are hunky dory we are the most graceful parents you will ever see. But for the other 23 1/2 hours of the day there isn’t a lot of grace in this house. I am certainly not trying to win any parenting contest with my skills as a mother. But what I would like to do is provide a happy home life for my girls and my husband. I feel that if we could just accept our situation and handle it all with a smile we could provide this environment. However, it is hard to manage that when you are constantly getting hit or screamed at, grunted at etc. It is hard to remember that your child is acting this way because she is sick and she is not doing it purposefully. Anyone else in our situation who has mastered this, please leave me a tip!